Do you ever feel like everything is going okay one second and then all of a sudden things come crashing down? Sometimes the things that show themselves are things that used to haunt you at another time in your life? Well that is definitely happening to me right now and I was venting via Facebook statuses and venting to friends but realized that this is where I really feel that I can get things out. Sure I'm going to write another vague post that no one else will be able to understand but that's okay.
I've definitely been in this situation before so now at least I know how to handle it. But it definitely sucks. One day/week everything is looking on the up and up and then the following week things that you never thought would happen again - do! It sucks but that's just goes to show you that even in business school life around you does not stop, although a lot of the time it definitely seems like you're in a bubble.
Usually I forget which day of the week it is and even the date. I just look at my Outlook calendar and go to whichever class or meeting that it tells me to go to.
News? What's that? The only News I see on a regular basis comes on in the business school and it's always a financial station with a ticker symbol at the bottom.
Trayvon Martin? Who is he? I didn't know much about the case until about a week afterwards because I saw a lot of Facebook status updates about it. I was totally unplugged and had to get myself up to speed on the case.
So yeah that just gives you a little glimpse into how disconnected one can feel from society while in business school. I'm not sure if folks who go to school in a large city feel the same way, but I can say that I feel that way here in Ithaca AT THE MOMENT. Now I'm not saying that this is everyone's experience here in Ithaca, but it's definitely been mine. Sometimes I will call up friends from back home and ask "what are you up to?" their responses usually revolve around "Um... I'm at work." When I was in Boston over spring break I arrived around 5pm and saw people walking to the train/bus stations. I was totally taken back by the sight because it's something I haven't seen since the Summer.
So yes, time has lapsed by QUICKLY for me and now I'm feeling down. There's nothing that anyone else can particularly do to get my out of this slump. Only I can change the way I feel right now and of course I'll come out of it, but it stinks when it's occurring. Again - sorry for the vagueness. Sometimes I wonder if I'm the only one of my classmates dealing with such things and out of 274 folks, I don't think I am. I may be the only one dealing with these particular issues but I know for a fact that there are other things going on non-business school related that others are tackling.
It makes an interesting dynamic. Everyone now is focused on A) the prospective students who will be taking over our business school next week for the admitted students weekend and B) their internships that will start - for some - next month in May. I too am focused on those things but am kicking myself in the ass about some other things. I'm wondering when will I ever learn.
With that being said, I have to attempt to put those certain things to the side because I have to register for classes next fall at 7am tomorrow morning and then at 7:30am I have a quiz. So while I have all of these other thoughts going on in my head I have to put them to the side for now and focus on what's ahead of me in the next 7 hours (it's 12:00am as I write this.)
On top of all of that - my glasses are broken and just recently my back-up pair are on their last screw... ::sigh:: but I am glad that my friend just got Lasik surgery! :-)
I also have to keep reminding myself that I am human!
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