I'll be honest, my heart sank and I immediately said "There is no plan b." She responded,"There should always be a plan b." I said "I don't have time to think about a plan b." But the short conversation got me thinking... What if I don't get in to a school? Am I overestimating the quality of all of the other applicants? Am I too confident in thinking that what I am doing is actually going to work? If I have done as much as I have up until now, what in the world could I do differently? These are all of the questions going through my head now.
I was venting to one of my friends I made at the NYU diversity conference about this and he said "that's why we apply to so many schools." I told him, "I'm only applying to 5." He applied to I think 10, so this week is a HUGE week for him. I think he finds out about LBS and Chicago and he also finds out if he's to be interviewed for a couple other schools. He reassured me that everything will be fine, but now I can't help but think.... "What's your plan-b Richard?" What are you going to do should you not be admitted to any school?
He's going through what I dread going through in a couple of months. Your whole life can change with 1 phone call or with the receipt of a rejection email. That's gotta be tough to swallow. He said he's surviving because of Xanax, so I think I'm going to have to find a doctor to prescribe me some for that month. I also think I'm going to take a vacation that week so that I'm somewhere warm with a lot of alcohol!
But you know what? I'm not going to dwell on that right now. The only thing I can do is make my application the best that it can be so that I have the best chances to be admitted! According to my Horoscope next year is going to be a pivotal one for me! So that's what I'm going to do and keep pounding the pavement!
The End Is Near! RBB
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